Feeling 7:

Today I feel… motivated

picture me, smiling, excited, anxious, nervous and anticipating the moment. Feeling refreshed!

I’lll be brief. because i am the biggest procrastinator, I’ve waited until the last day to turn in 2 assignments. Literally, was given 7days, 168 hours (I think :), and I’ve waited until the last 12 hours start on them. I’m such the star student!

Grand rising kings and queens (when i open up like this, just know I’m probably burning sage and charging some crystals, feeling super neo soul-ish lol),

Mentally, i feel amazingly refreshed, happy and at peace.

I’d like to announce, I embarked on a new journey with a new therapist this week, and let me just say this…….. I am on the mend to healing and becoming mentally healthier. My recent therapist wasn’t bad, I loved her but sometimes we need a different perspective. I wasn’t feeling replenished anymore so I chose to move on. Please never settle for just anything, but especially when it comes to psychiatric needs.

Intense thought: my therapist gave me a scenario. so I’m in a space of unlearning and Retraining my cognitive behavior from my natural response that I’ve embedded in my head for so many years.

My therapist asked me, “what happens to a pathway that you follow for a year? You will eventually get to the point where you can follow that path with your eyes closed. But what happens when we choose a different route with the same destination?” After so many years of consistently reacting and thinking the same way, the brain is programmed to be in survival mode, so the brain will go back to those same unwanted feelings, assuming this is what it needs to survive. We condition our brains to think a certain way and it’s up to us to reroute some of our thoughts from the usual beaten path.

(Im no doctor, do your googles like I did)

Rant: no rant today :)

message to you: keep showing up, even when you don’t want to.

picart: therapy session reference.

seeyabye1.

image: artpce

I don’t need any of your grammatical corrections. this is my free space and you are not my instructor.