Feeling 8:

Today I feel… patient

picture me, having a complete panic attack. Like a fuckin’ serious melt down. Just for things to go as planned. 🙄

this week I spent so much energy on panicking only for everything I was panicking about, to actually work out in my favor.

Intense thought: what do you do when anxiety begins to creep in? I completely lose my shit, then i call my mom to have the official melt down. I’ve been trying to be intentional about thinking before I react, hasn’t been going so well but here we are.

-next day-

Post therapy “sesh” : I must say, just as I was so ready to speak about my panic attacks, let’s discuss what has actually went right in my life as of late.

So boom, y’all remember me telling you about my car accident? Long story short, car was considered a total loss. Which means, I had to get another car… y’all, I ended up getting the car I’ve always wanted! Also in good news, Adam Chris has a new residency!

So basically the good has outweighed the bad.

In my therapy sesh my therapist asked, “how do I stay in the this exciting and elevated head space?”

It all circles back around to the “pathway scenario”, relearning how we think and react to unforeseen circumstances.

God is extremely good.

Rant: (random) 18-wheelers, stay in the far right lanes, there is literally no reason for you to be in the fast lane.

message to you: being patient is hard, But being patient can also bring so much peace. It gives you the opportunity to react in a way that you won’t regret and gives you the space and time to react responsibly.

picart: this artwork is a physical representation of my patience posture. Body langue not only speaks to others but I think it also speaks to ourselves.

seeyabye1.

image: artpce

I don’t need any of your grammatical corrections. this is my free space and you are not my instructor.