Feeling 2:

Today I feel… conflicted

picture me with my air pods in, blasting sza - smoking on my ex, nose in the air and last but not least rolling my eyes (straight attitude)!

we take steps in our lives to better our future, and all things around us for that matter. but what happens when it’s time to make those career and educational decisions……. an-mothafuckin-xiety! Terrified to make the wrong decision and hating myself for it for the rest of my life. am i being dramatic? probably.

why am I stressing, you ask? well first let me say, going back to school was never in my plan, but I felt like I wanted to prove something to myself. prove what? hell, i don’t know but here I am with the legendary student loan debt! yaaaaaaaaasssssssss! inserts eye roll emoji. i don’t know if i want to continue in business, i.t. or criminal justice. honestly, sad to say, the decision is based upon salary earnings. let’s be honest, none of us actually want to work but most of us have to in order to make a living. And yes there’s that saying “find something you love and never work another day of your life.” Yeah right! How do I apply for sleep? Thats all I want to do now-a-days. I can pass a drug test, whatever you need.

…and speaking of school, please let me make my grammatical errors in peace, you are not my instructor!

how did i cope, you ask? is trauma shopping a thing? because baaaaaaabeeeee the only way to heal is to buy. a nasty retro jordan & a plant, preferably a philodendron, (explains the reason for the picart I chose) always makes me feel better! it’s something about finding something to wear, only to cancel and the outfit only makes it to the barbershop! inserts laughing emoji

ight, 1. ( y’all remember when niggas was saying this when getting off the phone? you had to be there!)

seeyabye.1.

image: artpce

I don’t need any of your grammatical corrections. this is my free space and you are not my instructor.